"Seriously, I would totally join the Neighborhood Club if it ever existed.
Actually those are my "normal" clothes that I don't dare to wear casually because I had been made fun of once by a random dude,hah.So yeah I wore them for Halloween at school...LOL.And no I didn't have a gun.Yes I have strange tastes in clothes.
"In search of friends"
Yes I am really sad.
I'll stop spamming you guys with my lame sketches and start responding properly...OTL."
"I don't know if my drawing has gotten better or worse, but whatever...lol.
For those of you wondering my cause of disappearance:
It was all Touhou's fault, but because of Touhou...I have gotten addicted to netgame lately and stopped drawing and doing anything decent. <-EPIC FAIL.TOUHOU IS SOOO SADIAFRWGFPJOIUREWAGFREAGA ADDICTING.YES I'VE GOTTEN TO LIKE THAT GAME BWAHAHA(Actually I never beat any of those games because I kept switching back and forth LOL;BUT THE MUSIC IS NICE AND I ENJOYED IT AND I CAN ACTUALLY PLAY HARD MODE FOR ABOUT AT LEAST 4 STAGES ROFL)
It was all thanks to Fire Emblem(lol wtf?) that I've decided to draw again because I keep mindraging at the hard modes that I can't even beat(not even the first chapter OTL.)
Anyway,this is what is going to happen from now on:
I'll stop drawing regularly here because I have too many workload going on. But I'll «try» to be online here and um...socialize.errr yeah.(because I'm a boohoo friendless loser + a big meanie apparently IRL)
I really hope to get along with you guys(?) even though I...OTL is always inconsistent and lame-notawesomesauce-
I think that I have gotten better at drawing girl's top but I still fail at the bottom though OTL...I suck at drawing the head and the hand also urghhhh..."
I'M SORRY FOR THE SUDDEN MIA(missing in action in case you're wondering).There was many IRL reasons,but I won't mention them since I think that it wouldn't bother you that much.
The «I've decided to stop drawing» was there only for a brief time.I had no real «thought» of «quitting» or anything like that.
I have no excuses to justify my selfishness,my lack of devotion...That is,I have a bad experience in building and maintaining human relationships.I always have this feeling of inconstencity inside this personality of mine and it destroys all my efforts(that have been in vain) to build contacts with others.
I keep my distances a lot,and I don't want that...But it's also very hard for me to make friends and having a proper conversations with people(if you've noticed it).I've decided for a few days to cool my head down but it lasted a bit more than one week because of some serious IRL projects that have been going on.
I don't know what you feel about me,maybe I'm just a mere stranger on the other side of the internet that you don't even care about and it does nothing to you.I don't mind it if you think of me that way though...Since the main reason I go to art sites is to challenge myself and to improve myself.But during this trip of mine,I found out that making conversations,making attempts at building relationships have been fun also(although they were pathetic)...And I have maybe changed myself a bit...But I'm very thankful for all the nice comment that people missed me because of my absense...Actually,I thought that nobody'll care and I'll be just thrown in the oblivion like many others...But I was surprised(and glad) that some people noticed that I was absent and cared for it?Haha...Maybe I'm just used to being ignored...OTL.
You guys are really the best,I don't deserve all these attention and appreciation.And the worst is,I don't know how to pay you back...I have so many flaws in term of personality that I don't even know how to start...fixing them..I think?
Anyway,thank you for your encouragement,your support and last but not least...the communication!(yeah it'll sound really weird coming from me,I bet.)I'll maybe try to change myself to become a better person in the future,but I may not succeed at it ^^;.
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