вεαυτïƒυl Girl~♥ {Vent}
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being weird is fine~!ma friends n i r weird too! sometimes*
its fun..(; i juss want to enjoy ma life no one aint gunna stop u from dat~!~ i agree that being normal is boring tho~!
i dont care how others c me as.. duh only thing i care bout r ma friends wat they think bout meh! im 14 n i dont want a bf ;/~! well maybe later lols. xD n yea ;/ idk where im goin on with dis (typin) lolz
but anywayz i hope u feel better tho ;/~!
i don't care if others don't find me "normal"
this society sucks! normality doesn't exist, no one is :)
so u should try to feel right wid yourself, n say i'm "normal" the way i am :)
if normality did exist we would all b the same..pretty boring right?
its so boring! (trust me) all those "popular/normal" girls talk about
is which guys are hot and make-up which i think is a rather boring subject and stupid stuff (like who's going out with who/who's cheating on who BLAH) no one should really care about but for some weird reason they do
let me tell you this my friend~
normal people dont make the world what it is, weird/different people are
because they are the people who are willing to do/think of things normal people would never, like look at van gogh, he wasnt normal i mean the man cut off his own ear but people loved his art anyway
it was different and new
as for the boyfriend part , your young as
people under the age of 16 shouldnt even be dating anyway (in my opinion) because they're still like a child and most people make the mistake of wasting the last years of their childhood trying to grow up to fast, my point is dont worry you have the rest of your life to get a boyfriend but you only have one childhood so dont waste it XD
like me im not going to start dating until im at least 25 or so
so i dont waste my teenage life thinking about boys
(seriously it messes with your studies espeically if you break up which usually happens because teen couples never last >.>)
sorry this is long as O-O i didnt realize i had written that much XD
and for below, you dont have to try to wear makeup and dress up like other girls do or get a boyfriend. my friend is like that, she is pretty, wears makeup, and dresses like that, has a boyfriend, shes 12. Im not allowed to date, wear make up and all that. Mum wants me to do good in school and focus on studying. When Im at my friends house and we put makeup on for fun, mum will make me take it off because she thinks it makes me look too old. I have considered breaking rules before to get my friends to consider me not as the "goody too shoes"
but dont worry about it. v and yes, it is a ton of drama and can be a waste of time. dont worry about it ;D
Since I have a disorder which I've learn't to accept I've become rather envious and....well desperate for others lives..?
Anyway I just see girls on the streets dressed up in make-up, mini-skirts, boyfriends etc. also the same age as me....and I wonder...What if just one....day I came home like that?
How would my family feel if I wasn't the "Good" girl anymore...or how my friends like ^ that say, "You always listen to rules when are you going to stop/rebel and live life?"
My mum says she'd accept me anyway as long as I respect my family, but my brother...he'd....well you know what males are like...
I know that it must be terrible for them girls having to go through being called names....and stuff...But...I just....feel so left out....all the time....Everyone says "Oh your beautiful girl you could become supermodel!" But these days every "Beautiful" girl is out....and all the "good" girls...must whatch what they can't have....or what I wish to have being thrown away by some random girl.
I just feel left out.
Plus I've had a stressful week and I'm so tired....
Why can't I be that...."normal" girl?
Every one of my friends looks up to me because they think I have it "All"
They think I'm "perfect" I think I'm "Far from it"
What if I broke the rules..?
Went a little to far?
My mum doesn't want me to go to highschool because she thinks "A boy will get into your mind! I don't want you to run away!!"
I accept that...but what if I "bent" the rules....would anyone notice that I'm not the "perfect little girl" anymore...
I feel like the drawing above.
Although my life is going to stay like this I can emotionally feel I may never fully understand it.