Read Below (A lot of stuff I need to let out)
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winterfrore
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1. Family
I just don't know anymore. They speak bad about me in our native tongue, and they think I don't understand. I'm not fluent, but I'm not a flipping idiot. A few cuts of what I think they said:
Grandma: She wants to be with her friend more than her father. Why doesn't she like her family
Okay, first of all. One, I do like my family. I just hate how they all want to change me to be more like my other cousins. Two, I don't like being with my dad that much. He's childish and he makes comments about every flaw I have. Like, "Oh, Winter, you need to go to a salon. Your hair is dry." or "You need to exercise more. Your thighs are getting... um... bigger." and "You need braces. Your teeth aren't straight." And plus, he made me cry and made a video recording (Which he deleted) of it. When he started playing it again, I yelled at him and he made a stupid excuse, saying, "What? I just wanted to hear my voice." Grandma, how do you NOT see why I don't like being with him that much? End rant.
Auntie: Her clothes look really ugly. And she's so slow.
Well, EXCUSE ME for not being 'fashionable', auntie. I'm not girly, GET. IT. STRAIGHT. I barely care for fashion. God. And no, I'm not slow. I showered and got dressed as soon as she walked into our house. End rant.
And then after I said something about not being slow, they went all:
"You know the language! Good!"
"I didn't know you knew it!"
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No. Just. No. I'm not fluent, but I'm not A FREAKING IDIOT. Don't just brush it off as if you didn't insult me.
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2. School
When I was in fifth grade, I heard a kid say you needed a group to hang out with or else you'd be a loser. At least a group of three. Well guess what.
I don't have a group.
Does that make me the anti-social loser? It's not that I don't want to make friends, it's just I don't think they'd understand me. I made a new friend, but we're barely in any classes together, same thing as Louhidive. There's this girl there that sometimes talks to me, but I don't know if she thinks I'm a nerd. Today in class I said the word 'legit', so she turns around and asks me if I just said that. When I answer she turns back and I don't know if she made fun of me or not.
And then there's this boy. I'm like his therapist, but he likes stealing stuff from me, and I don't know why. It's starting to get annoying now.
I really don't want to be the outcast in the school.
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3. Friend(s)
A girl I knew ever since I was like, four, is just... I don't know anymore. I don't know if she's my friend or what. On Facebook, I typed a suicidal sounding status, and she typed:
well, nice knowing ya!
Two people said lol. One was her, the other one was a friend who was concerned for me.
What the freak.
WHAT. THE. FREAK. REALLY. HOW IS THAT FUNNY. One more thing about this segment, the girl who said lol also hurts me. I had a really bad stomachache last week, and she kept poking it. She wouldn't stop until I faked licked my hand. End of this.
And then another thing.
I have two friends who go to a different school than me, and they're asking if I can go there next year, and I just don't know. Because my friend Louhidive doesn't have any friends in the current school we go to, and I made some others. I don't want to leave them behind. And another reason I don't want to go to my other friends' school is because a jerk I knew who used to bully me goes there. Why would I want to go to that? I just... don't know.
If anyone can help, thank you.